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Apr 23, 2022Liked by Stacey Eskelin

Congratulations! Let's talk audiobooks sometime. More and more people are listening rather than reading. I prefer reading like you but I love telling stories out loud.

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And you are SO very good at it!

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"It’s not easy being this out of sync...." Tell me about it. My muse drinks sloe gin fizzes, eats three-day-old cold veggie pizza topped with peanut M&Ms and fires spit wads at the back of my head like a recalcitrant fourth-grader. I'd like to slap the sumbitch, but I'd have to catch him first, and I'm too damned old and slow. And so I put up with the abuse because it's easier than wasting time trying to trick the little bastard so I can force him into a trash compactor.

Did that seem a bit too overly aggressive? I certainly hope so, 'cuz damned if I don't have some unresolved anger-FUCKING-management issues with my muse. Fortunately, I can usually manage to shut he/she/it (I don't even know what the Hell the thing's pronouns are) up by writing obsessively in my basement.

I may never sell anything, but then again I don't have to. I've self-published a book, I have my own Substack, and I've gotten a boatload of positive feedback about my writing. I write because I'm possessed...er, obsessed...er, half-crazed and I can no more not write than not breathe. I'm not certain that's a good thing, but at least it's safe and it's legal.

I ended my 20-year-old blog on this date last year, and began my Substack on May 4th. So, far, I think only my family, friends, and a few heavily medicated residents of the Oregon State Hospital read it, but in time I'll rule the world. You just wait.

I'm big into self-delusion like that. :-)

BTW, I've long-since forgotten how I stumbled across Cappuccino, but I'm glad I did. Your long-distance friendship and support has been invaluable and greatly appreciated. The fact that you're also a helluva writer doesn't hurt.

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I am truly your biggest fan, Jack. I'm so glad to know you, too! Amazing how well you can get to know a person just by reading their musings. And BTW, did you say peanut M&Ms on that pizza? If I had a bag of those, I'd up-end the whole damn thing in my mouf.

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I opened my backpack this morning to get my MacBook...and what did I find but a bag of Peanut M&Ms. Share size, even...'cept that if anyone thinks I'm sharing this unanticipated treasure with them, they clearly don't appreciate my passion for Peanut M&Ms.

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Apr 19, 2022Liked by Stacey Eskelin

This got me thinking about the parallels between characters in my own attempts at fiction. Not altogether pleased about that (the parallels, I mean. The thinking is just that.) My scholarly successes pay even less than Romance fiction, but within an admittedly small (international) community I am very well known and respected.

As far as burning this shit down, I'd have to win the lottery first, and I've a much better chance of being struck by lightning. (Over the course of any given year, the odds are 1-in-1,220,000. I had cause to look it up when I was looking into COVID-19 vaccine risks.)

Samuel R. Delany -- sci-fi & fantasy author, more lately college professor -- has observed that if genre fiction was evaluated on the same scale as so-called "mainstream", it would absolutely command the best-sellers lists. But authors in those genres are paid pittances because their work is not considered "respectable," even though it out sells the supposedly "important" work by furlongs.

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You know, if you did win the lottery, I'd be overjoyed. That money would be well spent, I already know.

Being an author these days is just like that: one in a million hits the jackpot. The rest of us suck a tailpipe.

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