When I was in fifth grade, my mother sent me to an alternative school in Pasadena, California, which was nominally a Montessori-like program, but in fact consisted of two poncho-wearing stoners, Rich and Lilly, an absentee librarian, and a mostly abandoned school next to a fully abandoned church.
We were told to stay away from the church, but I was never the kind of kid that did what she was told. I found my way inside and spent hours—hours—reading in those abandoned pews with the soaring apse and intact stained-glass windows and the ghosts-of-services-past crowding the aisles.
Along with the thrill of the forbidden, I’d bask in the perfect stillness, watching dust motes tumbling through shafts of golden light. No one knew I was there, which added to my delicious sense of aloneness. To this day, one of my greatest joys is to sit inside an Italian church with its doors open to the afternoon sun, and have the place all to myself—which I usually do. Italians are incurably casual churchgoers. Even the sumptuous 17th century Duomo at the top of our hill is usually empty.
Ever since—and fortunately, I’m not alone in this weird enthusiasm—I’ve sought out abandoned places. Always, there is that same joy in solitude, but now that I’m an adult, it’s coupled with something darker. As I stand in front of some no-man’s land of weedy desolation, especially one previously full of cheer like an amusement park, mall, or vacation spot, I find myself reveling in the sheer bleakness of it. There is grim satisfaction to to be had seeing Nature reclaim what we, in our hubris, had once taken from her.
We are frail and finite. She is a life force that will continue long after we have exterminated our species.
There’s also a creepy, nightmarish quality to abandoned spaces that confirms my deepest held beliefs that life is creepy and nightmarish on a microbial level, a level unperceived by the human eye. David Lynch explores some of these ideas in his psychosexual hallucinatory film, Blue Velvet, when his protagonist, Jeffrey, discovers a human ear in the field behind his house.
Also appealing to the darkest part of me is my dystopic fascination with the reasons for these abandonments: economic collapse, natural or man-made disaster, pestilence, natural resource depletion, war. Most of these are preventable. When Nature reabsorbs our monstrosities, I am reminded that nothing built by man stands the test of time.
Lest you think I am a grim, humorless person with a scarcely concealed death wish … okay, you wouldn’t be wrong about the first part, but my interest goes deeper than that. Abandoned places feel like truth to me. We come into this world alone, we exit this world alone, so beholding an eerie wasteland feels as though I’m seeing life in real time. Truth is always beautiful in its way, if you’re open to it.
Without further ado, I give you a curated list of my favorite photos with the hope that you find them as fascinating as I do.
What’s your feeling about abandoned places? I’d love to hear your thoughts. Be sure to leave your comments below.
I agree. Urban decay - nothing like it :). I don't know if you've come across Ineke Kamps, but if not I seriously recommend you check her out. She's a Dutch artist/photographer and one-time-owner of the much-mourned Kedi the Crazy Cat, and travelled around the States and Europe photographing the interiors of abandoned buildings. FB page: Ineke Kamps Art. Enjoy!
I've always wanted to check out the abandoned Olympic venues in and around Sarajevo, most of which were never used after the '84 Winter Olympics. I'd also LOVE to go to Chernobyl. There's just something about run-down and desolate that appeals to me.